Not a Day I Want to Repeat Anytime Soon

Today was sad. Not so much for me, but for my heart which was breaking for so many people. For Jose, whose life was cut way to short. For the parents of Jose. No parent should have to bury a child. And I can’t imagine a sadder sight than Jose’s mother walking behind her son’s casket as she cradled a photograph of her lost boy. I knew the funeral was going to be difficult to witness once I saw his mother. Tears were flowing freely at that point.  For his brothers, who maintained an exterior as solid as a rock. There is no doubt their hearts hurt deeply. For the families who had any connection to the night Jose died. I can’t imagine how they feel. But I know it has to be beyond difficult. Nobody, and I mean nobody is at fault. This was nothing more than a tragic accident. I pray for healing more than anything.

And in many ways, my heart hurt the most for all his friends and many of my former students. This was the most difficult thing for me to see. There were so many kids who were there that I care so deeply for. All of them were hurting. It was so clear how much they miss their friend.  In a way, I felt as if I were an intruder into a world in which I could not help erase the pain. It was both heartwarming and sad to see how much they respect and miss Jose.

But it’s time to move forward. Goodbyes have been said. Time has passed. It does no good to wallow in the pain the head and heart feel. That’s not to say that Jose can’t and won’t be missed. But he needs to be remembered for his kindness and caring soul. Oh, and most of all, he needs to be remembered for his smile and skinny jeans.

Now, this has nothing to do with Jose. But the mood needs to be lightened. And what better way to do that than with an incredibly awful music video and song by a fairly major star. I’m not sure what Avril Lavigne was thinking with the making of this video. It should not exist. And I’m not even talking about the song. All I can say is watch this with caution. You will never get the brain cells back that will be wasted in watching this tripe. You’ve been warned.

Faces in the Crowd

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Until Next Time,